SMALL TREATS

Lately, I have been depriving myself of many things. I can't watch telenovelas on television. I can't go out with friends on spontaneous late night Gimik. I can't eat a decent dinner or maybe eat a light dinner before going home to be ready on my classes. I can't talk to my mom at night or early in the morning about what's going on with me except during weekends. I can't read my books because I don't have enough time. I can't learn a new language because I am busy teaching other people how to learn English. I can't easily talk to friends or chat with them online because I am busy with my students. Don't get me wrong about my teaching. I love teaching. I have always been inclined to teaching. I don't know why teaching is always following me. I remember my late grandfather told my mother to let me take up a degree in education. Good thing my parents supported me in whatever course I am going to take up in college. I promised that I will never teach because I know teachers are deprived financially and sometimes emotionally.

But I am back as a teacher and every now and then I realized how badly I needed this kind of job. I so overwhelm by the kindness my students gave me. They are so adorable and they are very good too in the lesson. Again, as long as they need me..I will be there to teach them. Call me "raketera", "gahutera" or "pamugasay"...I really don't care. It has helped me a lot financially and I am having fun and meet very nice friends. I am contented and happy right now. Arigato Gozaimasu!!

YOU HAD ME

I have known you for like more than three months now. Your family's been good to me and I can't even believe that it is easy to deal with people like you. I have been very timid before and admittedly, I have some negative thoughts about your kind. I just to let you know(in case you read this blog!) that I have been so happy for the past months that I have talked to you and your family. Your sister and mother are very kind. I feel so happy every time I finish talking to them and they say nice things to me. This is the most wonderful part of being a teacher and I will always treasure this all my life. My greatest dream now is to go to your country and meet your sister and your mother. I just hope it will come true.

You told me the other night that I might ran away. I want to tell you that very minute that I will not because it just very hard to let go now. Sometimes if you become very comfortable, it becomes part of your system. I want to say to you that after three months of talking, I still get jitters every time you booked my class and every time we talk. hahahaha..Crazy right? Okay, call me crazy but it's just probably me. I guess you don't feel that way. I just liked what you said today-You ran from the station to your house just to get to my class...awwww!!You had me at that situation. Just tell me to stay and I will stay but if you get tired of me, just tell it to me gently. For now, I'll do my best to teach you and your family and hope you'll keep me in your heart forever!!Ayasuminasai KM san....

BRAVING THE ONLINE

I am recently adjusting my time at night for jobs that entail online focus and not wandering around Facebook. I had problems with my teeny weeny net book in Skype but I managed to get by with a little panic and craziness in between. So much for that introduction. I am teaching online and I guess I need a handful of Asians to complete my Asianovela cast.

I have Chinese students whom I teach IELTS-which by the way, I don't even have experience in. Yes, that's what I call gutsy. It sounds interesting and I am very eager to learn but my experience says otherwise. haist! I actually shows in the manner I speak or talk to them. My first class today gave me chills not because of fear but because of frustration. She commented that she can't adapt to me. What? Adapting is not the right word girl. You probably mean you can't understand me. hahaha. I get it now, but she told my trainer otherwise. She told my trainer that I didn't help her and there is long silence between us. WTH? Anyway, I am not giving up on these Chinese kids. Wait 'till I am better and I'll teach you what IELTS is all about. I guess I need to practice more and be confident next time. Whatever!(good thing my trainer is soo patient and understanding.)

I also have a Japanese student with his mom who regularly talks to me online. Of course they paid me. I won't go talking about blah blah blah without earning something. One thing I like about the class is that it is conversational in nature. We can talk anything we want and for as long as 1 hour. The Chinese class pays very well but I am loving the Japanese set up. No pressure, just plain talk and with sense. I don't know how long this will last but I am pretty sure that I'm in as long as it wants my professional skills.(ehem!) Until now, I can't still get over the Chinese kid I taught a while ago. I pity her because she didn't like me but I felt sorry for myself too for not making the mark. 'Till next online adventure sonsaengnim(korean for teacher)!!!Aja fighting!Ciao!!!